A lot has changed for me in the past few months. I graduated college, moved back home, then moved to Detroit with my boyfriend and started two new jobs. After a whirlwind of activity, things have finally slowed down and I have settled into a routine. There is something comforting about a routine and about a new city starting to feel like home; however, I tend to get restless easily and am constantly need of a change of pace. I am starting to feel a need to be stimulated by something new, as well as a nostalgia for other, more exciting, times in my life.
As Kylie Jenner predicted, 2016 is the year of realizing stuff, and I have realized that this restlessness is probably part of the reason that I dealt with depression throughout my college career. I have also realized that this is due to anxiety and stress making it hard for me to appreciate where I am and what I am doing each moment. When I am in a loop of anxiety and stress, I get into a rut, and crave either an exciting change, or a past time when I remember being happy.
Cue realization #3, which is that I need to focus more on being mindful in order to combat these feelings of restlessness, nostalgia, anxiety and depression. Though it is not the new year yet, I am making a resolution to try to be more mindful each day in order to appreciate where I am and what I am doing, rather than wishing to be somewhere else.
Y'all probably didn't need to know that much about my mental state, but Kylie made me do it.